Anonymous asked: come back
Well this is lovely. Thank you anonymous. I will.
You touched me, and invited me into your house of comfort and hands of promises. You gave me a lover’s dance and a feel of love so powerful I feared of breaking from every moment shared beside you. You stole my heart and filled me with you, tore my fears away and pocketed me away from evil. We were perfect, we were sacred. And then you took everything back without even rewinding time.
You knew my biggest fears. That the thought of having to say goodbye to anyone one day, terrified me. You held me close and made me believe what we had was real. I would have never gone down this road if I knew I had to walk back alone. Here I am, broken again. You’ve fallen into the person I was before and you’re leaving me here. You’re leaving me behind.
vicedreams asked: You're alive! How are you? <3
Bad, and in a mess. I am falling apart so badly and I have become weak.
Ice like stone, winter cold, still this cloud of your goodbye corrodes me in it’s heat. You have broken me down all over again.
“Mmmmmm, tiger-flavored tiger.”
(Photo of Amur tiger Iris licking its 7-week-old cub at the Royev Ruchey zoo in Krasnoyarsk, Siberia by Reuters via the New York Post)
You love everyone to make yourself to feel loved. And I simply become one of the many you remind yourself to love. And now that something’s placed in front of you, something that’s real and feasible, someone that’s ready to love you back, you refuse to let it happen. I set myself apart for you, break these walls with one hand, with the other gripping onto my beating heart for protection, making sure it stays unbroken from everything about you that overwhelms me. Slowly, you are crumbling me. You created a world with me in it with your back door open, fingers crossed you promise me you are ready for this. But the truth is really you aren’t and you don’t want to fall with me. It breaks my heart so much.
There is a literal ringing of silence in my heart. I feel so empty, a gunshot through my wounded heart. I miss you and I feel drained.
